Where did my life go??? Oh ya, it's right here, where it belongs.

Wow, it has been forever since I have written anything on my blog.  Work, school and a small social life will do that.  All of a sudden I wonder where did all that time go? 
More so, I guess I wonder, did I really accomplish anything from then up to now?  Sadly, the answer almost always is no...well in the sense of "living" that is.  I accomplished tons at work, in school and at home...but nothing that would leave my mark on this world...or better yet my bucket list.  Hmmmm...I don't want to be one of those people who wake up one day and I am 80 years old and have done nothing but work to pay bills and save money on things that really don't mean anything when all is done and said.  Sure a beautiful home and a nice car is great to have, but in the end, those things won't matter to me.  In the end I want to be able to look back and say, well I lived, I mean REALLY lived my life.  I don't want to look back and wonder "where did my life go?" I don't want my life to leave me somewhere on a deserted road trying to find my way back home.  So how do I stay on track and stay focused and continue to live my life with all these interruptions with work and school?  Maybe it really isn't about staying on track.  Maybe all I need to do is change my perspective about living. 


So often I get stuck on trying to find the meaning of life and to make sure that I leave my mark on this world and that I won't die as a nobody.  If I think about it, that just won't happen.  I am a somebody, to many people. I will always have a mark on this world...well my world...and that mark is permanent.  There is no way that I could leave this world and not leave a mark and that is not to make it sound like I am Gods gift to this earth, but I am Gods gift to someone.  Maybe my focus needs to be on who I am to other people around me and not to what I can accomplish and obtain as a single individual for the world as a whole.  Maybe, my mark on the world needs to be focused on MY world. When I am 80, I want to be able to look back and remember the good things that I did for my loved ones.  Remember the the happiness that I made someone feel, the selfless acts of kindness that I gave to someone, the tears of joy and laughter that I might have caused, the shoulder to cry on, the ear for listening, and the unconditional love I gave to my friends and family.  If I remember many of those things when I am old and gray then I have accomplished more than any bucket list will ever do for me. 

"Dance like nobody's watching. 

Love like you've never been hurt. 

Sing like nobody's listening. 

Live like it's Heaven on earth."